I haven’t posted on here much lately because I’ve been pretty busy! Here’s an update on things:
I am not currently eating a vegan diet. I did it for just a few weeks back in December. If I am truthful, the reason I got off of it is because I gained weight. It’s that simple. It sounds very selfish, especially considering my talk about how much I love birds and feel guilty eating turkey and chicken. I’m not going to pretend I’m above selfishness. I still love birds very much however and know I will eventually transition back into at least a vegetarian diet.
I’m currently eating very nutritiously and as ‘clean’ as possible – meaning very little processed food. My current diet staples are organic oatmeal, organic fruit (mostly apples and oranges), [mostly organic] veggies (both raw and steamed), a little dairy (Greek yogurt and occasional cheese), a little bit of chicken and turkey, plenty of fish (wild Alaskan salmon, wild-caught cod and lower-mercury wild tuna), sprouted grain bread and brown rice. Due to the alignment of my teeth (thanks to Invisalign), I can now eat apples and raw veggies much more easily. In the past, my jaws would tire easily due to misaligned teeth. I’ve been enjoying an abundance of my favorite apples: Honeycrisp, Jazz, and Pink Lady. Since citrus season is now upon us (yay!!!!) I’ve also been eating a lot of clementines and oranges.
I had unfortunately gained some weight back upon my return to Tulsa from my road trip – 7.6 pounds, to be exact – and I’ve now taken those pounds off. One of my goals for the year is to get back down to my original ‘thin’ weight I had before I was ever an alcoholic and before I got into the terrible habit of comfort-eating. That goal is somewhere around 120 pounds, give or take. I’ve got a little ways to go. I’m seriously considering starting a new diet blog to track my food and exercise. We’ll see.
I am now a healer. Not in an official sense, but since the amazing situation with my sister happened, I’ve done healing on various friends and acquaintances. Many people have approached me in recent weeks with various ailments and sometimes I just know that I’m supposed to do this for them. Most of it hasn’t even been ‘hands on’ and in fact has been ‘remote’. The results have been astounding and miraculous. In fact, it works so well that I had to struggle with ego issues for a while. My ego would feel bloated up and then at the same time start flooding my mind with self-doubt. Not a pleasant frame of mind to be in! I’ve managed to get past most of that.
I now have a good friend who has done energy healing in the past herself and is getting back into it. Other people around me have begun to get interested in it as well, and at the same time I’m ‘suddenly’ meeting other people who have trained in it or are interested in it. It’s a really exciting thing to be part of, especially since I believe that we as humans will be moving out of the old ways of ‘so-called’ healing – drugs, etc – and move into this new way which is much more powerful, works almost immediately and has no side effects! Best of all, instead of simply masking pain and symptoms, energy healing allows people to find the true cause for ailments and take care of them. Illness is basically is caused by thoughts – fears, worries, negative beliefs, etc. (Thought is cause!) Ultimately, every human being is responsible for their health and well-being. So many of us have gotten away from that and we’ve been relying on medicine and doctors and at the same time, blaming genetics and a host of other things for our problems. It is exciting to see where we humans can go with energy healing!
I also believe the extra weight many of us carry is full of doubts, fears and negative thoughts. Many of us (myself included) use extra weight as a protective mechanism. I’ve been utterly terrified to show people my ‘true’ self. I’ve hidden away since early 2007 (after a devastating breakup), afraid to come out of my cocoon. It’s one reason that every time I start losing serious weight, I feel frightened and empty. And ultimately fail. So this time, I’m going about my weight loss in a different way. I plan to share on it and share my journey at some point down the line. More on this later… 
In closing, I’ve been sober for over a month now and plan to remain so!
First of all, I am happy to hear that you’ve been sober for over a month and planning to keep that up.
I am amazed at your honesty and capability of self analysis, I wish I had that.
If you decide to start a new diet blog, I’ll follow it for sure, since I need a bit of motivation to lose the extra weight I have gained lately, due to my unealthy life and lack of self confidence.
Congrats on your progress and month-long sobriety! I’d love it if you started a diet/exercise blog. I followed the old one and felt inspired by your journey. Keep up the good work and good luck!
Is the energy healing you are doing Reiki healing? My mother has been a Reiki master for years, and I never got into it until recently…..I temporarily healed my own sore throat that was keeping me up at night, when I had no medicine around at all! It was amazing, haha. I’m interested to hear more about how you trained for the healing and what you have learned.
Melyanna, Thanks! I feel self-analysis is extremely important for any kind of growth and peace in life. Sometimes it’s hard to see things in myself, but it’s also very liberating.
Denise: Thanks! I’m actually at 46 days now.
Tee: I’ve spoken with a couple of Reiki healer friends I have and have determined that what I am doing is not exactly Reiki, but close. To be honest, I’ve had no training. I pray for guidance before each healing and follow my intuition and seem to just know what to do. I have no doubt that I’ve done this in past lives which is why it’s coming naturally. However, I do run things by people I know who do healing to get additional suggestions or clarification. I’m going to try to set up a ‘healing group’ with my friends and their healer friends to share things with each other, etc. Exciting times!
Thanks so much for sharing this. First off, congrats on one month. That is awesome. Second, thanks for all your insight in an area that is challenging for all of us. Even when you feel like you are suffering a setback, you are helping others who will walk in your wake. You are so much more than a number on a scale. The most important thing is to hang on to your sobriety. xoxo
rian;
i have missed your postings! so good to hear you are doing so well!
best;
I sure hope that you do start another food/eating blog. I loved Girl on a Diet! I ate it up! Happy you’re sober and doing well. Very exciting stuff for the new year.